I wrote this letter fully in English. I'm sure you know the reason why. So please read it carefully. Everyword in this letter comes from my deepest heart.
Once when you meet someone, you’ll leave them someday.
I just realize this words lately when I know our
relationship can’t be simply called a relationship. I start to like you, I start
to love you, I start to save your existence in this heart. But you know what?
My thought never want to admit it. You know the reason why? Because I know,
everytime we love someone, it will get more pain when the farewell comes
between us. So I dont want to take any risks. I dont want to admit it, that you
have stolen my heart deeply.
Our sweet relationship was built from daily togetherness.
You do know I am introvert, passive, silent, and shy person. That’s why it was
valuable moment in my life to meet you. You taught me everything that I dont
understand about this life. And slowly, I started changing my personality into
the better one, like what you taught me. I really thank to god for giving me
time to meet an angel like you.
Now, our togetherness might not be like before. We might
also not be able to meet everyday. Because the last task that we started it
toghether has been finished. Our journey, that we usually pass by together, is
coming to the end. And when we are coming to the end, we should take our own
path separately.
Honestly, I dont want to come to this end of journey. I cant
let you go far away from me. I dont want it to be happened. Im so afraid to
loose you. Im afraid you will be different from now, you’ll be like a stranger
as if we dont know each other someday. Because all I want is just to be in your
side, I want to grow up together with you until I cant open my eyes.
Do you still remember our wishes for the future? You want me
to build a house next to your house someday when we will got married. Our
children should be a pair. Your child will be girl, mine will be boy, or vice
versa. And then our children can get merried so we will still keep in touch
more and more. Ah.. just cute wish. But want to make it happen too.
You always make my day everytime. You taught me how to sing.
Now my voice is better than before, I guess. You taught me how to communicate
something with people, I accustomized to great some people and talk to or ask
for something I need to take any conversation. And yeah, you changed my life.
Like a light from the stars which enlight the dark sky at night. Feels so charm
and looks so beautiful.
Every person has their own privacy eventhough they have
someone important in their life. So di I and you. You never show your sadness
to me. I know you have big troubles in life, but you never let me know about
it. Everytime I ask you what is happening, you have no words for me, say that
everything is oke. I understand that your secret might really privacy. I respect
it. But honestly, I want to diminish all burdens hanging on your sholder. I
can’t do nothing if you don’t want me to know. I just have to pray the best for
you everytime. Yeah.
I’m remembering all of our memories this late 2 years in
this letter. Now I dunno why suddenly tears on my eyes come down. Can’t hold it
any longer. I want to push it, I dont want to admit that I miss you so.
For this time, in the end of our long journey, I dont want
to say farewell. You dont have to say it too. I dont want to hear it, oke.
Let’s say that we just need to take a new journey individually, but in the end
of our individual journey, we’ll meet again. Yeah, we will. So let’s go. Let’s
see what are some the differences between we now and we tomorrow. Our score of
journey might be different, but our togetherness wouldn’t.
Please listen to my message. Listen to and do it. Since I cant
follow you anymore, can’t accompany your days, can’t look after you in bad day,
then please take care of yourself. If there’s something bad happen to you, I will
not stop blaming my self for not being in your side everytime. I know someday
everything will change, I will prepare my self for some changes of yours or
mine. At last, I thank you for everything I had from you now. Great thanks for
you my dear friend. Please always be my light. J
Seemingly, it's the first time you speak a lot sist, thank you. I even don't know how to say thanks in front of you because I always burden you but you always help me. Everyone will have problem as a form of God's affection. As a good friend, I know you really wanna help me, and yes you did. you helped me even more. Thank you.
BalasHapusWhen you're in silent, your eyes, exactly your face can't hide it from me, although I keep begging you to tell you say nothing. but I understand, you wanna keep it, and I just say to your heart that I pray for you and I believe you can through it easily my kind sist.
Once said that life begins from dream, and ya our dreams might be true. Someday we’ll be a close-family in which everyday you come to my house to help me cooking. Hihi (always think cleverly)...
You know that every weeks you leave me alone at dorm, I say to myself that I’m now learning on how to be sincere when someday we are far away each other like now. Even that’s hard, I should take it because that day will come.
I am so gratefull to the God who has given me you as my kind cute sista who is able to help each other altough ya I can’t denied that ‘I talk more, you do more’.
Everything that comes on my mind, I write it directly right now. Words cannot describe it, how thankful I am for everything you did. I hope that someday I can repay it, and God will of course repay you my sist with thousands goodness and happiness.
I do hope that you’ll be a success person. Be shalihah, get closer to God.
This life won’t last forever, don’t be afraid of anything but God. Go for your dream, don’t let your fear hinder your dream. You deserve to be success person naaaaaaaaaa.
You know who I am, if my modem’s not loading, I will make a novel of my feeling now, not short story.
I’ll not be different, ya maybe just getting young and more beautiful. Hihihi
Please remember my short messages ya:
1. Do prayer on time!
2. Do Duha, hajat, tahajud prayer/ qiyamul lail
3. Recite Qur’an at least one verse a day
4. Keep your body health, don’t forget to eat naaa
5. Keep dong the best for your parents ( remember that when we’re growwing old, our parents as well)
6. Having more socialization
7. Learn by heart lagam albaqarah 183 (forget to record it)
8. Keep smiling even alone while singing our theme song
9. Don’t spend the night without any good reasons
10. If you feel not easy to get sleepy, recite the meaning of qur’an or read book
11. Be happy everywhere naaa, don’t be afraid of anything but God
12. Be a good child for your family
13. Be a cute child as always for me
14. Wish you all the best
Actually, still many things I wanna tell, but I know you have known what that is. Although the distance separates us but our heart is in the same place. The prayer will make us so near. And yes you, yes you are always nearby, not far.
Remember my song,
Till that day come to separate us, don’t be afraid because you have stayed in my heart always. My kind friend, wish you luck everywhere you are.
Million thanks for everything.
See you soon, later and in the hereafter may we are able to meet in the heaven.
Aamiin Ya Allah Ya Rabbal’alamiin.
thank you. so touching :*
HapusYou should visit my blog na
BalasHapusIt's its link : http://ayuhamaasah.blogspot.com